Thursday, May 27, 2010

Decision Making with the Klan in Mind

Comprehension has disappointingly proven to be a difficult task when it comes to understanding the way the human mind works. One would think that if you live long enough that discretion, common sense, and wisdom would progress with human beings. That the growth would mirror the dreadful element that all of us have to contend with: Aging to Die.

I will be 40 in a few weeks. In my lengthy moments of serious contemplation I must proudly disclose that I am a little wiser than I was last year at this time. That is a good thing considering for several years I can transparently disclose that I have allowed lessons to go unlearned time after time. Thankfully, we have opportunities (too many in some cases) to reflect. Time to reevaluate. Moments to reassess and hopefully re-center. Meditation works!

Teacher in Trouble After Students Don Klan Robes

Catherine Ariemma had to know her decision to permit the wearing of Klu Klux Klan attire by two students would be insensitive. She had too! Okay, she has admitted that she made the mistake of allowing the two white boys to walk down a school hallway to shoot a historical video was in poor judgment. I will give her that, and I actually ‘receive’ her apology along these lines. What I cannot accept is her decision making to include such a vivid representation. That decision was just asininely stupid. No matter what history lesson she was trying to convey it does not justify her outlandish decision.

How would Jewish students respond to a makeshift construct of gas chambers that are used to inform other students about the Holocaust? I would imagine Ms. Ariemma and her superiors would receive the same response if a teacher of German decent got on the school’s intercom system and declared, ‘The Holocaust never happened. That part of history is a fairytale.’

What would be the fallout if during Black History Month…wait - are hyper-sensitive blacks, calling it African American History Month these days? – an African American history teacher had a black male student to dress as Nat Turner and behave as Nat Turner in a play to commemorate his historical footprint? Nat was no joke!

Both examples would display ridiculous decision making.

As we discuss this matter ad nauseam I hope we are comprehending the practical meaning we should gain from Ariemma’s dumb decision: Think before acting. Think before doing something that may hurt already mutilated feelings.

In this case, Her-Story lesson or not, the Klan should be discussed without attention grabbing theatrics. If not, what will be next? A public school produced play (get that? – taxpayers pay Catherine’s salary) to teach students the affects of slavery? Actually, that might be a good idea. But, I am not sure if I would be able to stomach how white America’s ancestors threw Africans over board slave ships when the Africans got sea sick, how Africans were sold like cattle on the shores of the Americas, how African women were raped by slave owners, how if a African got pregnant she was taking the chance of the fetus being cut out her womb, how African men were castrated all in effort to humiliate, how African children were forced to pick cotton instead of learning their 123’s and ABC’s, how well over one million Africans were lynched on the Land of the Free…

The realistic account described above is still wreaking havoc all across the hypocritical United States, the exploited Caribbean, and brutally imperialized Africa.

Someone tell the pearl wearing teacher that please. Someone please tell her that most Americans know that race has to be discussed openly in America. So happens, she does not need to tell black Americans that fact. She should perhaps mention it at her lily white social club meeting or at her church that probably would be in an uproar if a black man walked through the church doors with a Cindy this Sunday.

White Americans need the history lesson…blacks live the history every single day in this hell-bound white country! With that, let’s keep in mind that America is going to hell because of those in charge…President Obama is not in charge, Black People! Stop dreaming. Wake the hell up!

By the way, someone please share with me the obvious:

Why is there so much disrespect directed at not only President Obama – but the Office of the Presidency?

Written by Brian E. Payne.

Wednesday, May 26, 2010

The Protector's of American Image are Exposed

As Americans we are/were taught to believe that America can overcome just about anything. In many ways the United States has been triumphing. Even, I a harmless vehemently disliker of these United States, will acknowledge that. I will also add that many of these "ways" have been purposely misleading acts of accomplishment. As a child I and most American children were led to believe (brainwashed) that America could do anything. Hell, this country sent a man to the moon! We challenged the Big Bear of Europe, Russia!

I will ease up here with the exclamations - and ask: WHY IN THE HELL CAN'T AMERICA and AMERICAN men/women stop that damn oil from fuming in the Gulf of Mexico?

In all our accomplishment, I have been reminded over the past month that America is like a boastful incompetent (typical of a bully).

Again, we can send a man to the moon, but cannot stop environmental death and the driving force of American capitalism (oil) from uncontrollably spitting one mile from the water's surface!

We, Americans, have been hoodwinked by The Protectors of American Image. Wait...I will call my Western Civilization teachers what they are/were: Liars!

This country is a bowl of smelly false competence! Once YOU (American) realize that, you will begin to move beyond arrogant isolationism!

Written by Brian E. Payne.

Thursday, May 20, 2010

My Love Affair is Over

Nothing or anyone has captured and maintained my elusive attention like her. She was consistent. Always interesting. Stimulating. Intriguing. Mind boggling. On countless occasions she left me with that glaze of confused expression. That umm/eyes rolling in my head look. I just could not get enough. Our intimate encounters were so passionate. Tingling. She always made me euphorically orgasmic. After experiencing her, it was a guaranteed good sleep. One and done!

When she sporadically changed up our meeting times I willingly complied. That was surprising to me considering I am a man who likes a strict obsessive compulsive routine.

She, at times, got me in trouble with my main woman - but I did not care. No feelings of guilt! She was well worth the arguments and threats of break-up. I loved her. I cherished our time. She helped me grow.

Twenty years of 'relationship'. TWENTY...Sometimes openly. Sometimes in secret. Twenty years of love, and not one argument. Not one bad word. I yearned for her because of our compatibility. That randomly singular – but more significant quality than love that many couples do not possess.

All good things must come to end. The chapter is over. The book is complete. My love thang is departing. Her time with me is up. We are done.

She will be missed. Yeah, I will see her here and there – but nothing is like the anticipation of seeing her anew.

How I will miss the hard-on she helped generate. So pulsating. So intense.

Law and Order's last and final season episode airs next week.

Loving Law and Order. There is and will never be anything like her…One would not believe the love making and jump-offs I passed-up to be with Law and Order.  

Brian E. Payne sharing.

Friday, May 14, 2010

Black/White Fascination

Someone asked me the other day, "Why is it all about black and white with you?" She asked as if I make her uncomfortable or as if she is seriously wondering why I am grossly fascinated with race. I am! Race and Religion dominate several open areas of my brain. Race maybe consuming you if the picture made you think...and think. Or if it intrigued you...or irritated you...

The Shadow’s next installment:

*BTW, that is not me pictured in the photo. Would not mine if it was though!

Friday, May 07, 2010

It is amazing to me the level of pervasive negative sentiment that has suddenly arisen and that has become nationalized and owned by the American political landscape. This landscape consists of conservatives, Republicans, and right-winged Americans. Mostly white people. The Tea Partiers and alike.

For the first time in my history as a ‘de facto’ American, Generation X-ers are experiencing the doom and gloom apocalypse rhetoric. The world is ending because of…

Prior to the 1970’s (my infant/juvenile decade), America’s most divisive time that my historical education and memory can fathom was the 60’s. Like the sixties, some overwhelmingly believed that the United States was going to hell in a hand basket while others of The Culture of Change boldly initiated the efforts of sacrifice with hope and dreams. Many believe that this violently explosive moment in time was well worth it. The German Sheppard attacks were proudly welcomed to solidify righteous defiance to injustice.

Now that real Americans, descendents of the Pilgrims, are experiencing financial hardship and mass unemployment, that aforementioned sentiment is unabashedly lurking - and in some ways on the verge of lynching America.

In my analysis of where America is headed, my question has been one of Constant Contemplation: Why has America Suddenly Become Hell Bound? Not completely hell bound in the minds of those who have bought into the most recent and necessary Change Mantra. No. These people have been sold with passionate conviction. Convinced Change is abound. And, several of the purchasers of the Change have believed for years that America’s chickens are roosting. So, the hint of Change is a welcoming concept. But, one can’t help but believe with caution considering the United States has proven time and time again that she is xenophobic.

My interest is with those men and women who have conveniently ‘reconsidered’ their optimism. Optimism that has drastically moved to pessimism simply because the Change Agent is mulatto. Yes, there have been numerous writers and commentators who have connected this thought and behavior to the most recent Black History, a true African American man elected president. However, those of us who are tuning-in may need to question the vehement disagreement and jaded thinking about the future of America. If not, the Doom and Gloom thought process may just infiltrate the thinking of those hoping for Change. Psychologically that can be an easy process. Negativity, not reality, seeks and breeds the weak-minded. And, from my ongoing perspective of those who own Change are cognitively manipulated with ease. Similarly to the Jewish men and women who were against the extermination of Jesus – but somehow became sideline supporters of Pontius Pilate’s indictment of the Messiah.

It is my hope democrats and liberals will not fold. Cave in as a result of the overbearing Weekly Standard chatter. It is my hope that the Change Acceptors will not sleep at the wheel. If they do, the Empire (America) will hold true to what it has always been:

Right without Righteousness

Written by Brian E. Payne.

Sunday Morning Contemplation

Topic: Does Brian E. Payne believe in God?

"The Christian Believer's business should be if they are adhering to what their jealous and vindictive Christian God has asked of them."

Don't be on the link.

Thursday, May 06, 2010

When did Saggin Begin, Pre-Adolescence?

I tried to 'keep my eyes closed' as I traveled on the Marta today. Tried even harder as I approached downtown Atlanta. No telling what one may see or witness especially when one has to change trains at the Five Points stop.

I really don’t like to interface with what many may describe as ignorance. Foolishness. It literally pains me. Hurts. Yeah, it comes in all forms and colors – but…

I am really trying my best to call this ridiculousness what it is: A Condition. A Sickness. An outcome of slavery. I definitely will not stay with the latter description too long considering black people have in countless ways defied the affects of America’s most brutal act! Let’s just call it An Illness.

So, as I left a multi million dollar skyscraper with ‘out of touch blacks and whites’ - I was brought back to a Black Reality. The attached pictures today’s story.

If you are frustrated with your attempts to make out the photos:

The picture is a pic of a 4yr old boy. About that age. He is saggin. Saggin big time. I saw his kiddy boxers! A 4yr old sucking his thumb? Saggin more than my son was a few weeks ago before I laid down more Man Rules. Real rules that will help him – not taint him. (If ya interested in reading the definition of tainted rules click  

Back to the post toddler. By the way, the little man was with an adult! Maybe his saggin brother.

We are in trouble! We = Black People.

The trouble is starting so much earlier. So young. Pre-adolescence?? Wow!

Carter G. Woodson and Ralph Bunche are embarrassed I am certain.

My eyes are opening now. I am leaving one of many areas of the Atlanta area that many despise. Dislike. Lord knows I never wanted to close my eyes when it came/comes to black people.

I will travel downtown tomorrow and search for our essence: Beauty. Intelligence. Pride. I will look for I did today. I did look for a positive. I really did. No shyt!

So, please help me…help us by sharing a positive ‘black story’. Enter it in the Comments section below. Do it…Please. Leave your positive for all to read. Go ahead. Find one. Think of one. I dare ya!

*One condition: Nothing related to sports or any other entertainment.

I dare ya again!

Brain E. Payne sharing and daring.

Wednesday, May 05, 2010

Arizona Concern

A few days ago I was feeling "detached". Unconcerned! Well, as of today I am feeling ATTACHED. A bit concerned!

Here is why:

"I am from Russia. I reside in Arizona. Have been for years. At least 10. I am undocumented. An illegal alien. Over the past week, I have been thinking how this new law will keep me safe. Safe from being deported. Take a look at my picture (above). Do I look like I am suspicious? Based on looks alone, would there be a reason for a police officer to stop me and demand my 'papers'? Guess I am in the clear. Thank God I look like the majority population!"

I read this on a blog site. Supposedly, posted by a real person. A Russian.


Does not have to be a true account. The message is clear. Right?

Brian E. Payne sharing.